“oh, They Must Be Masturbating”

My actual thought if I see someone is: -sitting alone with sunglasses on in a parked car at any park, -sitting alone in a hotel hottub, -me, -peewee herman. — i just left a sweat mark on a brick wall, a brick mark on a sweat back, and not even from anything fun.

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Nobody

Craves a fucking salad. chop me up and throw me into your mouth, crunch down on me and swallow eating me will not nourish you [but that isn’t what you’re going for] sweetheart, i will not make you beautiful but you will love me for it. — Crisp

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Backdoor Blues

You checked on my door expanding  With heat. i could make you wooden door in the summer time, but I didn’t kiss you. — you were leaving and said, “so this is the bike you carry up and down 3 flights of stairs.” i thought, “yes, I am looking at him; have yet to ride…

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Toxicity Didn’t Kill Me

i remember it looked like a smashed strawberry when the gynecologist pryed the tampon out of me. I was a 20 year old Raped in my childhood bedroom by a boy who used “i love you”‘s like a trojan horse. — three days later, I didn’t remember. trauma does that to you [even though for…

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paper thin building

the couple that live below me having loud sex was the alarm this morning. i turn music on to drown out the woman moans and furniture clanking. | | | | | the destruction ceases. i hear one of them turn on the shower. i guess it’s time to wake up.

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PACKAGED PLAINLY in which sexuality is a production

since call out i have been rehearsing for this role. show, me. remind me we are built of friction; rubbed and grinded alive. — perform your frustrations on me center stage. what tale do our bodies have to show us of trapped want? characterize me [censorship obsolesced] i want to hear myself express freely. —…

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10 reasons Why

“for too long has the female body been conditioned to mute and edit itself for the male gaze. for instance, it is unlady-like to admit releasing in all forms from traditionally imposed pressures 1.farting/shitting/menstruating 2.burping, 3.being angry, 4.speaking up for oneself, 5.really, asserting any action upon another [unless it is to be fetishized by/for male…

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the Brooklynian Joneseses

the fifty-something couple below me have more [loud] sex than me. they have accents, smoke cigarettes, and I hate them. [tho maybe, they are something-like happy.] — I, late twenty-something shut-in, am decidedly not settling for a partner just fine enough. [for now] I have [quiet] sex, alone, Which may Sound sad In reading. [tho…

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