I spew all these words at you, releasing them from bonking around up in my noggin causing a ruckus.
You know
It was
Quite
Obvious
To me
You and
Her have
Your own
Past.
—-
I read it
Off both
Your faces
Instantly.
I felt the
Tension,
Seeing you
Look at her
the Same
Way You
Look At me.
—-
I felt her
Presence,
Nurturing
Pinpricks,
A spine of
Solid Metal
Betrayal.
—-
Once I’d
Learned
They’d
Never met
It only
Solidified
All my
Hunches.
—-
The three
Of us,
Standing
There in
That hall,
Coalesced
By the
Burning
Nova of
Your gaze.
—-
Did you get
What you
Wanted from
Each of us?
Sacrifices
My heart
At the
Altar of
My tongue.
—-
It damns off
The absolute
Bloodbaths
Of adoration
Anxiously
Circulating
Through
My Veins.
—-
I[t] know[s]
Better.
My systems
Need
Something
To keep
Us Running.
—-
I[t] know[s]
We have
Poured
Ourselves
Entirely OUT
For men
Before;
& Ended up
Nearly dead.
Just Outside
This Window
Of my head.
Thanks
For your
Continued
Patience,
My Cerebral
Peeping Tom.
—-
We both
Know
This is my
[-Paper-NO]
Digital Doll
Dressing
Room.
—-
You may be
Disappointed
To observe
The space
Doesn’t come
Equip with
A Gloryhole
For you to
Anonymously
Insert Yourself
Into My Hind—
—————Sight.
—-
Do you Like
Watching
Me slip all
The silky
Material
Over my
Shoulders,
Zip up my
In-seems,
& Smooth
Out these
Awkwardly
Laid Wrinkles
Of myself?
—-
Don’t
come
In……
[I’m Too
Shy 🙈 ☺️].
I’ll come
Out for the
Big Reveal
When I’m
Good
& Ready.
Like a hog.
—-
Let’s sit
In our
Human
Filth
All day,
Give
Each
Other
Half-hour
Orgasms,
And squeal
Our
Affections
Throughout
This Barnyard
Of a country.
—-
I want to
Stick my
Snout into
Your mud,
Decorate
Our pen
In flowers,
And roll
Around in
The joy
Of Our
Just Being
Together:
[Wild or
Domesticated,
Your choice].
Late last night, where I read some of my COVID poetry.
Each piece is framed in the form of calling someone.
The energies
In my body
Communicate
Unspeakable
Intentions
In Moments
When My mouth
Isn’t Quite ready.
—-
When I speak
Deep truths,
My throat burns
Red with Release.
—-
In moments
I speak from
My heart,
The surface of
My chest
Radiates brightly;
In brazen
Disregard of the
Shame placed
Upon my feelings
That pass therein.
—-
Don’t be fooled
When my face
And mouth seal.
My body takes
Me upon myself
To Compensate.
—-
The whole of me
Does not hesitate
To spill entirely
Out for you.
I inhale
And
exhale
“I miss
you”s.
—-
Under each
Closed lid
Hide cursive
Chalk lines of
“I miss you”;
Like doing
Time inside
These eyes
Not cast
Upon you
Is it’s own
Punishment.
———————
“As
You
Wish.”
—-
“You never
Fall asleep
In your
Earrings.
Here,
Hand
them
To me.”
—-
“I told
Him to
Leave
You
Alone
If he
Knew
He
Wouldn’t
Love you
Better
Than I
Could.”
—-
“I went
To your
Apartment
And
Knocked
On your
Door
Because
I didn’t
Believe
You
were
Really
Gone.”
—-
“Only
because
I’ll lend
up not
getting
home
until 3.”
The light beams
And shadows which
Curve round~~~~~~)
/———————\
| Every | Corner |
/———————\
| Of my | home. |
—-
I am every surface,
And we All
Want Desperately
To be.
—-
I ache, remembering
Your Reach——out to
Touch—these—-walls.
—-
My dear, you had one-
—Exactly————right.
I”m who
Couldn’t meet
Hall-the-way;
Redacting our chances
At——-last——-minute.
—-
Every medium here
Reflects only what
Could have been,
Had your absence
Not arrived in____
_____Place of you
That August night.
—————————
I never
Thought
I’d live
Very long.
—-
I grew up
With
Construction
Sites as
Jungle gyms,
Bingeing on
Six-foot
Beef stick,
Until I
Traded
Em’ in
For the
Salt and Meat
of Six-foot Men;
Clogging my
Art-eries
Til Death
Do us part.
—-
My ecosystem
Is rich with
Resentment now.
Shave
your head
And lose
Your mind
For me.
—-
Read my
El-lips-es
Like…
Gravestones.
Lick my
Pavements,
And taste
The concrete
Enclaves
Of our…
Retraced
Cemetery.
—-
Laid bare
I am the…
Heaviest
Medium.
Most men
Pick me up
Only to…
Struggle
And Set me
Back Down.
——————-
