A/S/L?

One of
The first
most
Intimate
Things

I recollect
Growing up
Was once
I fell and
Scraped
My knee
On some
pavement

And this
Neighborhood
Boy

Who I was
Best friends with
At the time

Took me
Into his
Garage,

Pulled out
His
First aid,

And applied
A band-aid
To my knee.

I felt so
Cared for

In a way
Until that point

I’d Only,
maybe,
Gotten from
My mother,
Otherwise.

I think
My little brain
Didn’t know

Quite
How to
handle it.

As we got older
People picked
On him because
He was gay, and
it was the 2000s.

—-

In hindsight,

I have a
Series of male
Love interests
That all
Ended up

Coming out
As gay.

Like,
My first ever
Celebrity
Crush was
Elton John…

He was on
The muppets
With those
Star glasses

That,
Apparently,
made my five
-Year-old heart
Pitter-patter.

My mother
And sister
Used to laugh
At me,

Before I
even knew
What gay
Meant.

My body
Doesn’t
Know the
Difference.

—-

When I
was Twelve
I fell in love
With a weird
Little boy
Who sat
In front of me
In biology.

He hated me,
For some reason.

And that
Really
Intrigued me.

I’d sit there,
Crushing hard
At the back of
His head
Like the
Total Dweeb
That I still am.

Coincidentally,
AIM just began
And everyone
Had a new
screen name.

I took my chances
And sent a list
Around biology
asking for everyone’s
Just to really get his.

I got his: dadakidsomething90

Eventually,
I Mustered
The preteen
courage
To even
Message him.

We grew closer
And became secret
Best friends
Of sorts.

He had this
saying
he lived by:

The more things change,
The more they stay the same.

We would tell
Each other
Almost everything,

But barely
Talked in person.

—-

A year or so passed
And I turned eleven.

As luck
Would have it
My parents won
The little lotto:
$50,000.

My cut was
a computer
For my room.

That allowed
Countless nights
Of messaging;

continuing on
Strong Even
Through high school.

As it goes,
We went to our
Separate colleges.

But occasionally
stay in touch,
Even to this day.

Last year was my
10 year high school
Reunion.

He didn’t
end up showing,

But I learned
From an old
Classmate there
that He Finally
Came out as gay.

I guess,

The more
things change,
The more things
Really do
stay the same.

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